Day 30, 8-28

Day 22

So everyone is okay, but there was a car accident in my family. I realize that life is really fragile, short, and you never know when you will go home to God. So take advantage of every day, every minute, and every second. Even when you wish your kids would go to bed, instead of screaming; when you wish they would stop throwing their food on the floor; or other things that you wish they wouldn't do. Being a parent isn't about controlling our kids, although some of that is necessary to keep them safe and to teach them, it's about the little moments. For me it's that they are mine, forever. God has blessed me so much. I have an amazing, kind wife and beautiful kids that love me too. What more could I ask for?

I think this has made me realize how close I need to be with God and also with my wife. I need to tell my children every chance I get that I love them. I need to hold my sweet wife's hand while we sit on the couch at night. Every minute is precious. A blessing and gift from God. Now what are we going to do with each one of those minutes?

Day 20

I think I've learned a lot about myself already, since trying to put God first. Notice I said trying.

One is I have a really hard time waking early.

Another is I look for things to share or things that are inspiring to me or really how God is helping me that day. The reason is because I'm thinking of this program, which really is helping me think more of God, and what I can share next on my blog. It's like when you get a fortune, that says your lucky number is 44 and then you start to notice that number every where. It's not that the number is magically every where all of a sudden. It was always there. You just weren't paying attention.

So think about/look for God more and you will notice that He is in your life and usually in the details.

Day 18

I didn't read early the last two days, I should have, but didn't.

Thank you EvansFam for the comment.

Spouses

I really want to have a relationship like the below scripture with my wife. It's really hard sometimes.

I keep thinking that our church leaders and prophet tell us to treat our wives like queens. I feel like I should treat her more like a princess, because in my mind I would be nicer and more loving to a princess, than a queen.

I just keep forgetting to try to do this. Any suggestions?

Tired

I've noticed that sometimes when trying to do a lot of spiritual things, I get spiritually burned out. Right now I'm just feeling burnt out, from lack of sleep.

As mentioned in the previous post, I am watching 24 with my wife. We stayed up late last night watching tv and then this morning my son woke up about 20 minutes before my alarm went off. My children are so wonderful, but it's a lot easier to be loving when you get more sleep.

One thing I have noticed is that as I read more in the scriptures and pray more, I feel promptings to be more patient and loving to my kids when I feel like I'm going to raise my voice a little bit.

God has blessed me so abundantly I feel like I can never repay Him, which is true, but I am amazed at all God has given me.

Changes Already

So after doing this for 2 days, you would think I wouldn't notice a difference.

I somewhat have. Today I didn't wake up early and I feel like me, yes, but I don't feel as peaceful and happy as I did yesterday. That's weird because yesterday I woke up at 5:15 to my little boy crying. It took him about 20 minutes to settle down and then I decided to just stay up. I felt so tired and probably looked pretty bad too.

The thing is though, I felt closer to God and to my wife yesterday. Not that I'm not close to them now, but you know there are some days that you just are laughing, talking good, and loving your spouse and family more.

When I'm closer to God, I'm closer to my family. I can feel God's love for me and that makes me want to share my love with others. It's how I feel after going to church, especially.

I've heard it explained like a triangle. God, your spouse, yourself each at one point of the triangle. So as I get closer to God, I also get closer to my spouse, as she gets closer to God too. I love my family. Family is what this life is all about.